But why am i feeling abit off?! ... *sigh* .. I coudn't help but think about my future.. >.<
I honestly can't help but think I've failed my music course.. :(
Why am i so bothered about music? ... i'll tell u why! ... It's always been my dream since i can remember! ..My ambition in life.. But.. i think its time i gave it up.. and go for a more possible career for me.. such as graphics...?
Not saying i'm any good with graphics.. but.. at the standard i'm at with my music.. I'm nothing compared to the real world.. no1 would want someone like me.. xD
..But at the very least...PLEEEASE at least give me a decent grade in music.. :(
last year.. i got an E.. yes.. its shameful to say how much passion i actually have for music..
which is whyy I'm finally giving up my dream..
that doesnt mean i'm quitting piano!
NO CHANCE am i EVER quitting piano.. xD Piano is my passion..
although i'm nowhere near the standard that i want to be.. :( but i have no intention of giving up!
*sigh* ... I'm really dreading my results...
It'd be shameful if i failed music.. in other words.. I would've failed my dream.. >.<
The future scares me.. I wonder if I'll ever find someone.. I'm sick of living a life with no-one there for me.. The feeling of being wanted.. needed... desired.. I guess it's something I've been looking for all my life.. just..without realising what i really wanted.
I always wondered what it feels like having a close family
I'd imagine you'd feel like this is the place you belong right?
I want to meet my family.. I want to get to know them..
Why is it soo hard for me to find someone?
What do i lack that everyone else has..?
Is my personality shit?!
My face looks demented?!
what is it?!?!?!?!?! ... christ sake.. don't I deserve anyone at all? ..
No matter how much i think of it... everyone I know has something i desire.. something that i can't have...
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