You are the reason i smile :)

Bday + Xmas = ? ?

:D Gifts!! ... and ofcorse good times! but thats in the other post! ^^

I'll be honest .. This is the first time in my whole life i have had this many gifts :')

ahh I'm like a kid right now ^^ looks so colourful!

Thanks everyone for the gifts and making my birthday a memorable day ^^

Thanks for being there for me .. You really mean alot to me, I wouldn't know where I'd be without you guys .. Thanks for accepting me ...

Thanks for EVERYTHING! I love you! :)

This card is just so cute .. I had to take a picture of it ^^

This is from Kathryn .. The message really touched me :') Ahh i love you Kathrynn! :D

"Thanks for being such a great friend to me ~It really means alot"

aww .. :') I love you so much Kathrynn!

And I'll defo try my best to get into Manchester! .. over the past 2 years... we've not really been hanging out as much as we did..

I wanna have more good times with you! coz u mean so much to me ^^

A lovely card from my Wifey ....

Lets take a peek inside .. and there's our face stuck on :') ..

That pic is soo bad ... Its actually AMAZING! hahahah! never fails to make me laugh ^^

ahh i love my wifey so much :D

19th February - I'll never forget that day we first set eyes on each other ;D

Thought I'd show u some gifts that my lovely's has got me =]

this is from Amy Lee! ^^ I don't get to see or talk to you as often anymore :'(

Your always busy when i'm not and i'm always busy when your not .. sighh

You live in Manchester now coz of uni .. but hopefully I'll be able to get into Manchester so i can re-unite with you and Kathryn! :D i decided.. my heart is set on Manchester ^^

This is from Katy Leigh :) .. She know's i love Hello Kitty ^^ well it is quite obvious haha

My room is quite full of Hello Kitty stuff but yeah .. I never had a hello kitty diary before :D

Its so cute inside! just what i need for a new year .. hopefully this will help me stay organised hehe its cuter than my previous schedule :O

Thankyou Katy! :D

This anchor necklace was from Michael Ngo .. Seriously .. I wasn't expecting this at all :')

was just in town with jack.. and decided to go to starbucks for abit ..

and then i randomly bumped into Michael?! D:

He gave me a birthday kiss on the cheek :') aww but its so sweet! he went somewhere.. didn't think he'd come back .. but he came back with a necklace! aww ...

I do love the necklace :')

This Owl necklace is from Kelly :) The head and body jiggles!

I really like this necklace ^^ Sorry if the present i got you wasn't so good :(

but thankyou soo much for the present! :D

Jess got me soo many random stuffs :') ahh i love random stuff ^^

i thought i'd take a pic of these cute lip glosses she got me coz they look so cute :D

This proper amused me so much :')

Its a stereo/mp3 thats in the form of a milk carton! ahh i love ^^

Thankyou Jack soo much! :D

This Mushyroom cushion that i've wanted for ages ... I finally have it!! :D

Zoe brought it me :') .. ahh i proper love it! ^^

Little Big Planet model! from Kyle :)

he already brought me a playstation move! .. can't believe he actually got it me :O the playstation move was enough .. but then he brought me a little big planet model too :')

ahh thankyou soo muchh!

This is the first perfume set i received as a present ^^

i never really wear perfume at all ... but this is a gift from Kathryn :D and it smells really nice!!

Its Hugo Boss women! so far ... I've been wearing it everyday :)

Just to let u all know... I LOVE YOU ALL!

sorry this post is pretty boring ..

Its time to shiine like you never have before!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MEE! :D

Yes.. I'm getting old :( but ... theres always something to look forward to! :D

For instance .... MY BIRTHDAY CAKE!!

mmmm ^^ doesn't it look so yummy? My mum picked the cake for me ^^ well ... i mentioned that i wanted to have a heart shaped cake :D

Also been working at the nail parlor over the christmas holidays.. so they did my nails in time for my birthday party!

thought i'd go for the blue look to go with my dress i brought :)

What d'ya think guyz?

The cake tastes just as nice as it looks too :)

and the nails... well .. it was this new guy working with me that did my nails ..

he gave me sooo many cuts! :( it hurts so much .. sighh nevermind though .. i'll cope lol never felt so much pain just having acrylic nails put on lol

I also had my hair done before my birthday! Decided to have it done at Tony & Guy

I really like my new hair.. but its not really much of a big difference. It feels lighter and healthier now though ^^ which is good :D coz my hair is always dry lol

still not sure if it's worth £35 .. it was with a senior hair stylist with student discount.

Here's me holding my birthday cake anywayz :D

I was worried the cake might drop/slip out of my hands lol .. but thankgod it didn't

or my parents woulda gone craaazy xD

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Ahhh... so my birthday party has finally arrived! all my girlies came over to mine to get ready :)

I was stressing out abit coz i was runnin late... AGAIN! .. >.<

i reli gotta sort myself out lol

I forgot to even put jewellery on D: so ... was abit plain lol

We all caught taxi down to common room :D mum rented a room out for me there ^^

Its pretty good .. £100 including 2 pool tables

Nintendo Wii

2 plasma tvs

and music :D

but i heard that the drinks are quite expensive :/

Finally .. i get to see Kathryn and Amy :') ohh how long I've waited x]

A little re-union :)

:) aww only known you guys since september in college.. but it feels like I've known you guys for agees now x]

you guys made college worth going .. Hopefully .. we'll all get into Manchester met together! :D

My beautiful girlies all dressed up :)

Check me out! ... coz i'm sooo pro! ;D

(pots the white ball in) lol

:') got birthday kisses ..

Nothing's better than a birthday kiss from my Wifey :')

Dress: MButterfly :)

Got bored of Jenga.. so we thought we'd try and build something else xD

Although many people dropped out last minute from the party ..and not as many people came ..I had a fun time! :D I love you guys who turned up!

Went to Chippy after common room shut .. and Melanie.. such a lightweight xD .. was drunk already .. xD ahh she's amazing when she's drunk :')

Afterwards .. Melanie, Eva, Zoe and Kyle stopped at mine ^^

some of my girlies came along just to hang out for abit.

we stayed up till 5:30am i think.. we all got distracted and started watchin videos on youtube ...

I haven't laughed soo much in ages .. i actually laughed so much i cried :') ..

My lovely bedroom ... after everyone left .. but zoe lol

Thankyou everyone for making my birthday so special! :')

Thanks for all the gifts! I love them all soooo much! ^^

Thanks for all the birthday messages! :D :D

Show me love .. not a dream!

Guna talk to you coz i have no-one to talk to .. being surrounded by so many people, I still feel so lonely. Feels like I'm annoying everyone for being who i am! Well sorry if I'm not the person u expected me to be .. but this is me! I'm stubborn, lazy, stupid, dumb, pathetic, loser.. need me say anymore to describe myself?

Been sat in my room doing cswk all the time .. trying as hard as i can to catch up with cswk ,.. trying to spare some time to practise some piano .. having to get some music theory done which i can't even do! .. Wanting to revise Japanese..

Constant nagging from all my teachers .. especially my form tutor in college. Every little thing i do .. i always get nagged at .. Its always me! 8 projects all in 1 go .. given 5 weeks to complete them.. i mean .. gimme a break!!! I have other stuff to do!!

i never heard my piano teacher complain to me so much .. tbh .. i don't think i wanna go for my grade 5 piano .. I'm only guna fail. Feel so pathetic .. was supposedly aiming for grade 6.

Nagging here nagging there .. where else?!

Oh yeah .. and just when i finally get a friggin holiday .. my mum nags at me complaining to me for not working at yama! complaining coz i don't go to work .. what do u expect?! I want a fucking break! I need a life! I don't want to fail piano neither ,.. i need to pass it :'(

I mean .. rather than nagging me 24/7 .. college, piano, home,.. even work .. cant they at least show a LITTLE bit of courage?!?

Feel so unwanted right now .. i mean, what's the point in even being here? no-ones ever satisfied with what i do. parents complain saying "Don't do music! Its a shit career!" but thats my dream.. and i gave up my dream coz of them words!! and ofcorse .. i'm not even good enough to begin with anywayz ..

so i chose to do graphics.. so what does my parents say?!? "Why did you choose art related course?! Your just copying your brother, Its no use in life!" I do that, they complain, I do this they complain .. WHAT MORE DO YOU WANT FROM ME?!

Yes .. its obvious my opinion doesn't matter to anyone .. You know what .. lately I can't even be arsed to do anything .. can't be arsed to argue back, can't be arsed to do work .. can't be arsed to go to work .. can't be arsed to celebrate christmas .. can't be arsed with my own fuckin birthday! cba cba cba cba cba cba cba cba cba cba cba cba cba cba cba cba!!!!!!!

Do you ever get the feeling like you don't fit in anywhere?

I feel like such an outcast. Unwanted. I always feel like I'm annoying people.. well yeah .. infact, i do! I don't even know what to do anymore! I don't lose my temper over nothing neither!

But yeah, I should be used to it by now!

Do you know how much I hate ignorance?

I CAN'T FUCKIN STAND IT! to me .. it feels like I don't exist to them.. Like they're mocking my existence! Its horrible! Yeah .. It's not like I'm there with you right now .. Not like i fuckin exist to you! not like it fuckin matters when I'm gone! sometimes i wonder .. is a simple reply soo hard to do?! What am i doin.. talking to a brick wall?! Yeah i get that everyday .. in fact .. I don't even have anyone to talk to at home coz my parents are always working and my brothers at blackpool! No1 even talks to me on facebook or msn anymore ..

Friends decide to go clubbing .. I'm guna be 19 soon and yet my parents will complain to me about going out! Its not like Im majorly bothered about clubbing .. I just don't like the fact they moan at me still! ..My mum still gives me lectures on How to Cross the Road EVERY DAY!!

I've drifted apart from my group of friends. Feel like an outcast now .. Don't even get time to see them much and when i do i just ruin everything anywayz .. whats the fucking point .. i might aswel just isolate myself! I can never do anything right .. can never please anyone .. can never satisfy anyone!

everyone always say to me .. "Other people got it worse than you!" Stop fucking comparing me with people!!! This is how i feel END OF!!!!

Take me somewhere magical ..

:) Over the past week.. we've been having alot of snow here in Sheffield! ^^

I think its more than I've ever seen tbh :) ahh i just LOVE the snow soo much. But trust it to snow on the week of my deadline :'( ... got proper distracted with the snow .. couldn't help but go out and play xD i felt like a kid again playing in the snow :')

not many people went into college on tuesday .. well, i didn't bother turning up in the morning lol coz...well .. i guess i got abit lazy? :/ but at least i finally dragged my ass out of bed and made it to the afternoon class x] which only ... 7 of us turned up i think? i was hoping i'd know someone there .. and luckily enough Ryan and Peter was there ^^ pheww

.. Young had a rant at me for turning up .. O_o ..

"oh, another student?! whats wrong with you students?! stop turning up! your meant to be lazy!" ... i was like ... waaaaaht? O____o" .. and then she went and said ..

"AAAAND where were you this morning?! D:<"

:S eeep .. lol can't win can i xD .. well .. it was pretty pointless turning up tbh ..

but at least me and Ryan had some fun in the snow on the way home x] .. he proper kicked my ass with the snowballs :(

Hillsborough park looks soo pretty when its covered in snow :') like a fairytale wonderland ..

Shot of Ryan throwing a manly snowball xD

Were guna make a snowman .. but it split in half D: sooo Ryan decided to crush the rest x]

Got bored of Hillsborough park .. wanted to go sledging instead. So went down to Ryans to fetch his sledge :) .. and met his doggies for the first time! ^^ They so cute! :D .. one of them is a border collie .. i love border collies! :D .. i think its a border collie, its a form of collie anywayz. She called Amber :D she so cute x]

and Nanook is an alaskan malamute.. He's only 7 months old :/ and hes bigger than me lol

This is also the first time i met his dad too =]

The boots i wore was soo slippy :/ took me ages walking him his road as i kept slipping lol

Went sledging with Ryan, his brother, dad and nanook came along :) Its my first time sledging ^^ the fields they took me was soo pretty! :D can see the whole of sheffield ish xD

These shoes i wore was no good :( sledged down to the bottom of the hill ... but takes me 10 minutes to walk back up coz i couldn't stop slipping lol

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Day after playing in the snow with Ryan, i met up with Jess, Adam, David and Stephen :)

Haven't seen them much lately due to coursework/work overload :'( not many of us can come out that day coz of transport and stuff :/

Jess brought her sledge! :D :D

Hillsborough park :) doesn't it look pretty ^^

Finally got a chance to go on this swing! x]

Dunno what they were doing .. some street fighter stance?

The snow was pretty thick! I'd say it was around 25cm thick? quite abit over our ankles :)

Never seen so much snow in my life if im honest ^^

:') I love these pics! I love the snow! ^^

aww :')

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Sooo ... 3rd day in a row .. playing in the snow again ^^

but this time .. its with .. near enough everyone in the group! :D

Zoe and Kelly was able to join us :) ... all the guys came ^^ ahh happy happy happy :D

Everyone was just trying to get each other down xD .. got Zoe down quite a few times :') but .. she just sits there and not move so we all covered her in snow ^^

mehh .. should use your legs Zoe :D

I got taken down quite a few times .. D: .. but .. I'm not uploading that picture up x]

Sorry Kelly .. i couldn't resist :') on the bright side .. ^^ everyone was attackin Zoe :)

We do share some lovin' every now and then after a snowball fight :')

Group Photo! :D

Why so serious Jess?

:') Wifeys in the snow

Me, Adam and Peter ^^

Found a swing in the middle of the park that someone made .. :D

I went on it .. and everyone just kept pushing me sooo quick lol i fell off it xD ..

Peter went on it and lost his manhood :')

After we got bored of the swing .. we moved onto sledging! :D ahh i love sledging now ^^

the slope was nowhere near as good as the one near Ryans .. but i had fun anywayz :)

There was a .. what do u call it? .. a Ramp! lol something like that xD .. at the bottom of the slope .. so everyone was trying to sledge off the ramp xD I succeeded quite a few times! :D

ahh .. it was funn :) loved it! ^^