If only ...

If only I had the power to turn back time .. I wouldn't have to regret anything ..

"People learn from their mistakes" ... I hear this quote way too much, although it is true..

If only I was satisfied with what I already have .. Comparing myself to others, It makes me feel worse .. its true.. People only want what they can't get..

I sometimes think to myself .. if everyone got what they wanted .. all the little things would be useless and dumped ..

There are alot of things in life that I don't have .. That I'm prepared to wait a lifetime for it.

Love, Happiness, Wealth .. they are the main things every person seek for.

whether it takes a lifetime or not .. I never want to leave this world without experiencing this feeling.

Everyone has a dream or ambition .. for me.. i have too many.

I'm having to cramp everything up into my tight schedule .. I don't want to give up on anything

I want to be good at something .. My mum would always say to me .. (in chinese)

"yern yern boon tung sui"

.. meaning .. everything is only half full ... not a single one am i fully good at ..

which is true .. but i enjoy learning new stuff ..

I'm scared I won't ever get the chance to do it again when I'm old .. I'm scared of what my future has in store for me..

I wish i had more time .. I know a lifetime is a long time .. but I want to have enough time to achieve my dreams .. at least one dream ..

What is love .. ? Love is what you treasure .. something you want to keep forever ..

'corse love can fade .. which leads to heartbreak.. Everyones got to have been heartbroken at some point in life no?

I'm scared of losing my loved ones .. I'm always mean to my parents .. I act as if I don't care, but really I do .. The futures a mystery .. You can't see whats coming your way.

I'm going to really try and be a good daughter to them ..

Thats why .. I want to study really well.. and get a good job .. so i can help them in future ..

but right now .. it doesn't seem possible to me ..

I'm not clever at all .. I may be born in england .. but my English isn't that good ..

I'm chinese .. I can speak Cantonese .. yes .. but I can't read or write in chinese ..

There really is nothing i specialise in ..

If only I was rich ,.. I wouldn't have to worry so much about my future .. about finding a career .. my studies .. I wouldn't even have to worry about what to buy in shops ..

In this world .. You cant afford to be picky ..

"You get what you'r given" .. Guess we don't really have a choice ..

If i had a choice of power .. I'd choose to control time ..

That way I could have as much time as I want ..

I could turn back time .. Correct the stuff I did wrong ..

Fast forward time if I can't wait for something ..

Rewind the time .. so i can relive my happiest memories ..

Pause time if i don't want this night to end ..

Only these can happen in a fantasy world unfortunately ..